Archive for August 2007


When I looked into Wikipedia, I found some interesting understandings, definitions, explanations of transformation based on Physics, Algebra and Geometry. Interesting and of course necessary, fundamental knowledge and wisdom for us as human beings. The question is whether we understand the same when we talk about transformation related to Human Beings. Is there something fixed and unchangeable from which we make transformation possible? Is what we reach after the transformation has taken place, what we call transformation, or do we call the whole process from which we started until we receive a certain transformation, the transformation? I really do not know.

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WHO Transforms WHO?

Not knowing is in my opinion an excellent possibility and a wonderful opportunity for searching. Searching for new meaning, new approaches, new ideas, thoughts, truthfulness, values and possibilities. The question I have is whether we can transform (find) all these new questions when we search from the same circle, position we always stood in? As part of the circle, being in the circle can we find new questions (more interesting than the answers) when we use the same assumptions, believes, patterns, ideas, methods, instruments as we always used? Can we open new “doors and windows” with the same keys, even at moments that we are unable to see the doors and windows and not having keys at all? Is it possible to be in the circle, belonging to the circle and being at the same moment outside the circle?

This question was for me the reason to explore, in many different ways, however this could be possible. Deepak Chopra would call it the observer, who observes the one who is making the observations; for easiness let us call this the second order observer. If this would be possible, than the use of the mathematical approach is valuable for Human Transformation as well, since this second order observer (hence not the one who makes the observations itself) will be the one, unchangeable and fixed, who is able to (co) create new possibilities. It means that in our lives on earth when we are able to be in touch with the creator, the second order observer, the decision maker, that we can transform our human actions, manifestations in to new divine actions and manifestation. When it would be able to observe our actions from this (outside) position, this state (of pure consciousness), we are able to transform every single action into a transformed action and manifestation. Meditation and Yoga helped me to experience what is meant by this state. It does not mean that we immediately have all answers to all questions, but I experienced to have unlimited possibilities to ask myself even more questions than I ever could imagine.

I went in April 2007 to an Intensive Course at Findhorn in Scotland to “become” a Transformational Game Facilitator organised by InnerLinks. Of course a good reason to explain and talk about transformation. I did not know exactly what I could expect, but I was searching for an instrument that could help me (and others) in my coaching and training sessions. I could have asked somebody else to facilitate this game, but there is something in me that always wants to experience myself first, before I am able to recommend to others. If I follow courses I am also immediately searching for possibilities to share and to make it available to others. This is why I followed this two weeks intensive course. First of all I was overwhelmed with the natural beauty of Scotland and the great environment at Cluny Hill in Scotland. I can highly recommend this wonderful place to others (if you take a good umbrella, since it most regularly rains cats and dogs).

The day we started I found myself surrounded with great people from many different places in the world. We were with 9 students from 6 different nationalities. When we open ourselves to miracles, and we all did, we will experience them and they will have a rippling effect. We had the very best teachers. Teachers that are committed to the game and to the students who want to learn to facilitate the game. Teachers with good listening skills, compassion and willingness to show their knowledge, creativity and other talents and professionalism. It was a pleasure to learn from them and from the other students, even at the moments that I found myself in a mental split. I feel very grateful and I want to express my gratitude to our teachers Suzan Schwartz and Angela Morton. As a teacher in a Business School it was a great opportunity to become a “real” student again. Not knowing whether your talents, knowledge is enough to pass for the final test. To be aware that your actions, talents for this purpose (becoming a game facilitator) will be judged by others. It is great, even more when you pass and look back, to experience how difficult it is to work on “new” intentions. Walter, my husband, always uses the metaphor of playing Hamlet (for the less cultural ones, from Shakespeare). When you learn to “play” Hamlet it will be possible but different from “becoming” Hamlet. The best actors are the ones that become Hamlet.

From playing to becoming is what we could call transformation. The same player, the same script, but becoming happens on a deep, profound level of internalisation, more profound than what was first something as experienced from outside. The good news is that to become the transformation is possible for everybody. Further news is that it needs an intention, organisation, structure, focus, discipline and commitment.



My husband and I went to the 12th International IONS conference: Science and practice of transformation. The conference was hold in La Quinta a few hours drive from Los Angeles. IONS is founded by Edgar Mitchell, PhD and a former Apollo Astronaut.

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Before the conference started we had a great opportunity to visit our good friend Kevork Artin (Coco) who has restaurants in Santa Monica, California. Being with Coco means to us being with a true Angel. Born in Armenia but lived with his family in Syria were his father worked for the American Embassy in Damascus. When Coco was 18 he left to live in the USA. When he arrived he had really to start from scratch. Coco devoted his life, made a commitment to the world to serve others with healthy and tasty food. Even in moments that he faced difficulties he did not give up his focus and dreams. I personally met Coco during a Yoga retreat with Rod Stryker held in France. My dearest friend Kalpena invited me by telling that she would come to France to take part in a Yoga retreat of Rod Stryker. I would have liked to join her in almost any occasion not knowing where I went into. I found myself during the exercises in the most (im)possible positions wondering whether I really was able to survive. In one of my most devastating moments (for about 12 minutes in the downward facing dog – mountain position) I looked behind trough my legs and I saw Coco in the same position making notes to describe the impact of the exercise. I was and I am still amazed. While having many possibilities to talk to him I was inspired by even more activities he is normally doing and his deep consciousness. His passion for cooking, healthy ingredients, his knowledge of body, mind and spirit and his unconditional love to serve and to take care for others made that he touched my heart. I feel very fortunate that Coco became my friend. When we arrived it was if we were always together and we shared immediately our latest news. Due to Coco we had the very best preparation for the conference and we went with an open loving heart and mind.


Coco, Walter and me enjoying each others company

During the conference we were able to listen to outstanding performances. Listening to people that make a difference and who feel committed to others and that are not afraid to show their knowledge, wisdom, creativity, beauty and the commitments they made. I enjoyed every single second of being in the conference and I will never forget the performance of Van Jones. Introduced by IONS as: Van Jones “Champion’s alternatives to violence and incarnation in urban America. A Yale educated attorney, he is president op the Ella Baker Center in Oakland, California. Under the slogan “Green-Collor Jobs, not Jails” he works to build a green economy that is strong enough to lift people out of poverty”. I felt overwhelmed by his sense of humour, his radiance and brilliancy. His words full of care, respect and love entered my heart. His sourcing for truth, honesty, integrity and never given up hope is still not enough to describe him. Two other human beings that offered me the rememberance of compassion and love are Lynne Twist and Hafsat Abiola. These two “Angels of light” telling their own stories and what commitment really means. “Lynne is a global activist, fundraiser, author, and founder of the Soul of Money Institute. Lynne has raised hundreds of millions of dollars and has trained thousands of fundraisers to be more effective in their work for organisation that serve best interest of all-eradicating poverty, empowering woman, nurturing children and youth, and preserving the natural heritage of our planet”. Lynne is mother of three children and exchanged with us her personal experiences by being a mother and being committed to her projects to create a better world. As an example of true commitment she was and is still completely supported by all her family members. James O’Dea the president of the Institute of Noetic Sciences said about Hafsat: “She is Royalty”. I agree completely with him. Her smile opened my heart and her personal story even more. “Hafsat was born in Africa, educated in America, and is currently living in Asia. She is an activist and writer. Trough KIND, an organisation she founded, and several other initiatives, she works to unleash woman’s wisdom and leadership in the service of creating a better world”.


Hafsat Abiola

I want to thank every single person that I met during this great event. I received a beautiful CD: “Mozart voice of Serenity” Soothing Mozart Melodies for Relaxing and Healing with the voice of Nancy Fox & Jane Stopyra, that I would like to recommend. Coming back to Los Angeles we had some more time to spend with Coco and enjoying every single moment of our stay. On the last day of our one week in the USA we visited the SELF-REALIZATION FELLOWSHIP founded 1920 by Paramahansa Yogananda a true paradise in the midst of one of the biggest cities called Los Angeles.


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Self-Realization Institute

Coco and Walter both interested in Flamenco music and both guitar players and me committed to the gypsy soul visited in Hollywood a guitar builder. Whole his life committed to music and art. Music channelling true his body, music in every single manifestation and action. Music is his life. The world has changed he told us without regret, but in peace. People are less interested in hand made guitars, now they prefer the electrical guitars. I started with 9 other people and I am the only one left. His face is smiling and devoted to his music while starting to play.


Talking about commitments I can only think about the commitments I made and I am more than ever convinced that I should focus on them. Creating a peaceful world, introducing concepts and theories to create better living and working environments. Bringing people together from the whole world that made commitments. Many people ask me about what I think about Personal Development and it is not easy to explain in a few words what I mean by Personal Development or to make a truthful definition and to explain my ideas about it. One thing I know for sure is that Personal Development without connecting and making commitments to a broader perspective is nothing more than an artificial facelift for egocentric and selfish behaviour. When the letter I is written in capital it means that WE is more often not or less important. Shaykh Yassir Chadly (presenter during the conference) explained about the I: “When the I is most important, when our focus is on the uniqueness of the individual we start to think that I is the center. It is the I that dominates. If the I dominates then we will face wars, conflicts and separation”. Swami Chidanand Saraswati (presenter during the conference) said: “Many people ask me: Swami I WANT PEACE and I want to know how I can reach this peaceful state. According to Swami Chidanand Saraswati the answer can be found in the question. “Just skip the I WANT and we are in PEACE. I love to thank all the people that we met and for all the possibillities we received. I want to express my gratitute to the many great teachers I had. I want to share some names with you. Deepak Chopra, Roger Gabriel, Rod Stryker, Swami Persaud, Elly van Soest and last but not least my one and only beloved SAI MAA. I will be always commited to your teaching. Inspiring, motivating and always bringing peace, compassion and love. To be the change you want to see in the world. (Mahatma Ghandi)

Let us all make a commitment.

A very “Special” Welcome

Thank you for entering "my" blog. I hope you will enjoy reading it and I wish that you find useful and interesting subjects and information. I feel very grateful that this blog will give me the opportunity to share and I wish that many of you will do the same by responding. My greatest desire is to enrich peoples lifes. I firmly believe, based on my experiences, that all our activities from which we oberserved, experienced and felt that we made a difference in other peoples life, is a momentum which we will never forget and from which we after many years still remember how happy it made us.  Marshall Rosenberg, a world leader in non-violent communication did a lot of research on happiness, as one of our most fudamental needs. Enriching peoples lifes can easily be translated in serving others. Chalanda Sai Ma is a famous spiritual leader who is a living example of unconditional love and unselfisch service to Humanity. She is also the best living example of what what we mean by that. "She is practising what she preaches". She has tought me more than anybody else that serving others is our greatest gift, since we receive the possibillity to give and it shows us immediately that there is no difference in giving and receiving. Feeling grateful for making a difference is one of the most important aspects of health. Healthy people will fully enjoy to create healthy and safe relationships, environments and surroundings. Healthy people are fulfilled with pleasure and happiness when they observe others being succesfull and brilliant. Healthy people are overwhelmed when they recognise talents and wisdom. Healthy people will show what health really means, by being grateful, graceful, respectful, friendly and by loving others. You will recognise them in the words they use. You will remember them since you felt supported and loved by them. You will recognise it in the smile on their face. You will feel touched by the loving reflection in their eyes. Everything they do in their manifestation and action will remember you on who you really are. These beings will manifest clarity and transparency. When you meet them you will feel "special". I have met many human beings that made me feel loved, respected and "special". I want to express my deepest gratefulness to them. Thank you. I received from a very "special" person a very "special" card which poem I like to share with you.

  "Special" is the word that best describes you…

"Special" is a word that is used to describe something one-of-a-kind like a hug or a sunset, or a person who spreads love with a smile or kind gesture."Special" describes people who act from the heart and keep in mind the heart of others. "Special" applies to something that is admired and precious and which can never be replaced. "Special" is the word that best describes you.

I wish that you will feel that this wonderful poem is meant for you.

All my love